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This creative and conversational memoir style of blogging is embellished with photographs, sprightly texts, and gentle listening features. May these entries be as cathartic to read & to hear as they have been to conceive & to share. xo
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Happy Valentines Day, Loves! For you,---or maybe mostly me--- though many have probably already seen, I share with you my favorite Valentines: Hehe... If you don't get the "IT Crowd" ones, you should; British comedy completely worth your time! At least it has been some laughing therapy in my newly rare down times. . . I find it oddly reasonable though that just a couple weeks into the ol' grad program, I think I have found myself craving down time coupled with intermittent comedies watching than I have in years. . . Don't get me wrong its not that school isn't awesome- its AMAZING in many many ways, its unreal- the difficult parts especially, as where the tension is so too is the enlightenment, but difficult still feels draining before it feels uplifting...  Yes, intellectually, CTS' got some vigor!!! But the psycho/social/emotional side of this very holistic endeavor, Wooooooo! It leaves my insides feeling a little more like all of my open books sprawled across the floor in all their exposure! Between learning about the culture of tribalism mindsets/economic chasms of my New Testament times course, to the communal customs saturated with submission to God these traditions have within World Religions, to the philosophizing morality in Psychology and Assessment , to the discussions over healing through the mirroring of each others pains and victories and then attempting to act this out in the pain-strikingly petrifying practice of this within Group Psychotherapy, my mind and senses are on OVERLOAD! Conviction, Ecstasy, Sorrow, Anger, Fear, Awe, Self-doubt, Enthrallment! For good or bad, So many thoughts, actions, habits of my childhood, adolescence, college years, and beyond are re-surfacing... So many of my passions in me are bubbling... The blessing is that I recognize these reactions--internal or external-- and I continue to be watchful, but so much discipline and putting in the practice in balancing this new life pace and all the convictions which come with them are needed-- where the intermittent comedies are needed for the heart to re-energize and get a little light again :] (& the blogging helps too!). So I promise to be on here more frequently, friends, because I sure need the ventilation and especially so I can go more in depth with some of these life lessons more specifically, but for now, I'll leave you with one!... The implementation of one of my personal goals for New Testament, to all my course & soon, life...  Practice the integration of my academic, reflective and artistically expressive skill set within coursework so to tailor an academic experience more in accordance with my own enrichment and a not solely for production, for grade, or professor. I 'm making this Master's Program more my own, and using the work and time as an experiment in my life's journey than a cosmetic to another cookie cutter existence. This picture is of my quick drawing our Psych and Assessment professor asked of us-- to draw our conscience & explain what we think it is. My first instinct was one I've been conditioned to all my life,
"Do what you think he wants you to do you to do". My hand wouldn't have it though, accompanied by that feeling of heart, and quickly followed by one of those little internal voice --the conscience one might say?! :]-- whispering, "Why don't you create how you usually create, Bre!?" It all made sense. And only continues to... Yes, this is an act of loving myself. New Testament told us that in the Greek, the word "love" derives from the world "loyalty". Oh, how different would it be, if I were loyal to who I really am.... Love you all (I hope I'm loyal to you all too)... xo Comments are closed.
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