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10/3/2013 2 Comments
If my food,
were my lovers
& not simply in the eating to "attempting-to-fill-my-relational-hole" expression,
but food became personified;
the relationship with my mother
What would this say about my actions in relationship?
Am I taking too much?
Am I savoring too little?
Am I choosing what is the best for me --as I understand 'best' at this time-- or
Am I settling with how much and whatever is put in front of me?
Am I addicted to choosing what is not the healthiest for me & do I believe that this can change?
Am I really giving him the attention he deserves?
(Am I constantly eyeing my phone, or working on the computer while in your presence without concern or informing?)
Am I turning from what I do not want to believe?
Am I working to make things better for me,
or am I content with the taste of mediocrity?
Do I trust that he will be enough?
Do I trust I will be taken care of?
Do I expect too much of him?
All this and only more I can imagine...
What if the way I eat
and what I eat
is directly correlated to how I love others;
how I love myself?
How do I expect to treat a partner with the love and affection I so hope to, if I do not give the same quality of love and affection to the substances I spend a significant portion of my lifetime with?
The more tender I treat my meals,
the more tender I treat others/
The more thought into choosing my food,
the more thought goes into choosing my company.
The more aware I am with the flavors on my folk,
The more aware I am of the essence of the beings who I walk with in this life.
The more present I am with my the status of my stomach,
The more present I am with others/
At least I would imagine these are some of the formulas hold true for me...
I think its time to change my bouts of mindless eating, &
of what I am eating -- while I have come to believe in a more holistic way of living the last few years,
I have not been living too closely to an ideal balance this last year.
Here's to taking steps to making changes,
praying for these changes to occur through me
-- physically, mentally, spiritually, and otherwise --
for the sake of a greater version of self & of all others.
All the love & whatever is the 'best' to you too..
This creative and conversational memoir style of blogging is embellished with photographs, sprightly texts, and gentle listening features. May these entries be as cathartic to read & to hear as they have been to conceive & to share.